Deep

OH OH OH

I am getting very deep.  I am in the deepest part of who and what I am.  I am content within and now my whole outer world is all screwy.

I used to (maybe) not be content within so much, and my outer world seemed fine, controlled and happy.

It's funny to me how for 30 years a huge desire of mine was to live on the outside what I was feeling on the inside.  This was a big goal of mine; to freely voice what I think, feel, need, and desire.  I did not allow myself to learn this at an early age; quite the opposite, in fact. 

I am now doing this better than I ever have.  AND, I didn't realize there would be so much to the simplicity and the complexity of my own voice. 

Everyone I come in contact with may be affected (or so I think) by this.  I know every relationship I am a part of; I am different than I was. 

I seem to be at a standstill right now as we (everyone I 'touch' and myself) are doing the dance of what now.

I didn't really think this out.  I have to see who will accept this new me and who cannot.  I have to see who I am comfortable around and what has to change to allow comfort. 

This is a real eye opener for me and there is no going back; nor do I want to.  However, knowing how to go forward with ease is a work in progress.

OH, I am 'dancing' now.  I want to thank you all for your support.  Without it, I wouldn't be growing; I wouldn't be me.

What are the similiarities of your relationships; the differences?  What you have helped to create - is it good for you?