Crazy or Most Sane

I am having some type of day today.  I could not/would not/did not get out of bed today.  I laid there in silence, not moving, for hours.

First came the 'better get up'.  Then came the 'I am really mad at you for not doing better'.  Then, finally, I said I'm always saying acceptance and to just allow and follow your truth...  So, I thought - 'ok, I'll try this right now'.

I laid and laid and laid.  Before I knew it - I was in that 'special' place of not awake and not asleep.  I have this belief that this is where most healing happens.

I heard my inner voice saying "As I'm laying here I'm making new, healthy skin and tissue; new healthy skin and tissue; new healthy skin and tissue.  This is what my body wanted today."  I found myself imagining new healthy skin growing and glowing all over me.  From my fingers to my eyes to my scalp to my feet.

I am extremely hesitant to write about this because what if it's not true; what if it doesn't happen; what if I'm crazy.

More than anything - I find it utterly interesting that once I stopped fighting with myself to do other than what I truly wanted to do - I found such a peace, inner being and, perhaps a new skin.

So, there, I wrote it.

What happens when you stop fighting yourself?  Any idea?