Where I'm At

I'm not quite sure where I am at.  I am trying to do almost everything just a tweak differently and it's amazing at how many things are not working smoothly for me and there isn't even a hint of my usual and 'full of ease' autopilot.

I would laugh if I didn't find it so hard. 

I decided to walk one of my little dogs with my regular big dog walk today.  Even got in the car and went to the park.  I ended up bringing the wrong leash for my little dog and....things went wrong.

I decided to put together a pool device that would automatically read the water's chemistry and I can't get it to work; had a hard time putting the batteries in.....things went wrong.

I decided to be honest to my husband about a certain feeling I was having... and I jumped the gun (so to speak)  ... and I found myself wrong.

My head feels dizzy and confused.  Again, perhaps, my old way is fighting with my new way of thinking and being.

I believe so.  I feel childish even writing these whiny thoughts.  I thought about stopping midway.  I thought about deleting the whole post. 

If this is my old self meeting my new self...what a ride!

I trust the process of my life and I am bravely going where I have never gone before.  No matter if it drives me batty or not!

Do you dare follow through with something you know you want to do; something you never did because the fear of something always stopping you?   May I suggest to go for THE ride and experience it all. 

I am believing more and more that if we come from a place of open heart and honesty, we've done it perfectly no matter what.

Sometimes, maybe we just have to reach around the hard part to continue our full life.