I've been up every hour since I feel asleep. I am awaken with a throbbing, feel like a knife is scraping my toe bone pain. How can something so small hurt so much. Oh, but it can.
I am down to 1.5 pain pills a day. This is good for me. No, this is great for me. I am now struggling to take a half of one or not. I was hoping this was behind me. It is not.
It is what it is. I believe I have no choice but to accept this and keep searching and praying for relief.
I think the good news is that I never really had ulcers in the summer. Does this mean I will have less in the winter. Am I deluding myself.
Pain can bring up alot of 'stuff' for me. Anger is a prominent emotion right now. Frustration is sitting here as well. Sadness is tweaking a bit. Great strength is standing inside the door, so to speak.
Give up. No way.
Carry on and pay attention to what is. This is where I'm at currently. I am grateful I am choosing to pay attention to what my body is saying instead of ignoring and carrying on as my mind has always had me do. It's time to try something new.
Give myself what I need. I do know what that is; most of the time. I honor this part of my knowing today.
May you honor the part of your knowing that wants your attention the most today.
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