Even the title bothers me....
After not sleeping well for the past four nights because of pain coming from ulcers on my toe and thumb; after the release of the infection and the throbbing settling down - I could not stay awake today. I slept beautifully.
Did it feel good - Oh yes. Was it the best thing for me - Oh yes.
AND, I do have some guilt around it and a small sense of uselessness. This is old stuff of mine. I know in my brain and my body that resting today was very healing and healthy for me.
I do have this old voice in my head saying 'what a wasted day - what are you lazy - can't you do better than this'...
I choose to tell that voice goodbye. I choose to tell that voice to stop, you are no longer (if you ever did) working for me.
I choose to know that I feel pretty darn good after a beautiful day of resting and getting stronger. I am grateful I was able to rest and make a reserve of energy within myself. I am happy that I did what I know is best for me AND I didn't hurt anyone. I hope not anyway.
May you know the difference between your helpful 'voices' and the 'voices' that no longer serve you in a positive light.
May you hear loud and clear the good sh**!
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