Pain

After 30 years, I am still allowing myself to be amazed at how pain can make everything else about and in my life diminish.  Pain can be louder than anything I know.  It can get my attention like nothing else.

OK pain, I'm listening!  Talk to me.  Tell me what you need or want.  Let's be done with you already.

I find it hard to focus on anything other than the throbbing, hurtfulness of pain.  I know numbing it helps.  I also (from my own experience only) know that numbing it doesn't get rid of it.

I'm ready to get rid of it.  I want other things that are more fun and exciting and lovable to take precedence in my life.

I am being forced to find a new way.  How exciting and scary at the same time.

If something is talking to you loudly or hitting you on the head, may you stop long enough to listen and incorporate change to diminish the pain of it.  May you let it process through you instead of around you.